Suddenly you’re pregnant, and your body becomes this machine. This amazing life baring machine, growing another human being, watching your body grow magically, whilst you house your tiny baby. It’s all wonderful and beautiful.
Then you give birth.
You’ve never seen your body in such a state, you’ve never been larger, you’ve never been as wobbly, you’ve never hated the reflection in the mirror so badly. But you’ve got this baby, you should be thankful, yet you’re not. Are you a bad mother for hating the body your baby left you with? No you are not.
Your body is still yours, regardless of whether a baby lived there or not. Which means you have every right to love it or hate it. And if you want to hate it right now that’s absolutely fine and completely plausible. I know I hate my outer shell of a body right now, I don’t look flattering in the clothes I used to. Everything is a different shape and size and everything has sort of gone south. I don’t know if it’s even at all possible to get back to how I was pre-pregnancy. Which is so sad because I had that other body for years, I knew it well, it worked for me and I knew how to care for it and how to dress it. Now this new body is here, and its scarily unfamiliar. I can’t eat the same things without it having an effect, and I certainly can’t wear the same things without looking like a chubby boyish potato.
All I know now, is that it takes time. I know that you cannot get instant gratification. Patience is key. The amount of times I have got upset over my reflection these past four months aren’t even countable. But, ever so slowly I have started to see weight shift, and my tummy to tighten up bit by bit. Even some stretch marks have started to fade away.
That’s when I realised how wonderful the female body can be. If your body can bring life into this world, it can sure as hell do anything else. There is nothing it can’t do. Your body is living proof of a miracle, and even though loving it right now feels far from possible it will become possible.
Remember one day you’ll love yourself. And remember, “I am fierce”.