I have no idea where 2016 has gone. I keep asking myself “What have I actually done this year?” I haven’t particularly amounted to anything large or wonderful, but there are a few smaller details which I am extremely happy about.
Finding peace with myself. Coming to terms with my inner self and learning to love my own company is something I have found gets easier with age. You begin to put behind you all that ‘boredom’ which has attached itself with being alone. Then life gets so busy that weeks fly by quicker than you can blink. Weeks turn into months, months into a whole year, and any bit of alone time becomes a sacred gift.
My one giant leap into improving myself was concurring my crippling travel-related anxiety by going on a 10 night holiday to Barcelona. Boy was that hard. This is the first time I’m admitting to this… but it was possibly the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Although the idea of another long holiday makes me sick to the bone, I know that I will be able to fight it. I wrote all about how I dealt with my travel anxiety here.
Reaching a healthy weight. My weight started improving once we moved into our new home at the end of 2015. Before then I was a tiny 7.1st for a tall 5″8 me, but now I have found the perfect balance weight (does that make sense?). That weight where you don’t think you’re too skinny but you also don’t think you’re larger than you should be.
Finding my niche in photography… I think? This isn’t set in stone, but I am pretty sure I have found my thing that I will carry on with though-out my photographic career after I finish my degree. This has opened my eyes massively, I can just about see what directions I need to take to help my career blossom and to improve my work.
Overall this year hasn’t been too bad… I can think of worse years (curse you 2014!). I am slightly worried for 2017 as we are already aware of the scary changes to impact mine and Brad’s life in January alone! God help us for the 11 months after that! Things could go one of two ways, 1; Everything could get fucked up and we could be left with nothing. 2; Everything we’ve ever wanted and wished for could come our way and fall perfectly into place.
2017, please be kind.