Lately, I’ve found myself drowning in a pool of nothingness. An empty skull, no fresh ideas… Absolutely blank. I was dreading going back to college, I hadn’t taken a photograph in what felt like forever, and the love I had for my camera had disappeared into the dust that sat around the poor thing for the 13 weeks of summer.
But today commenced our first official day back… Into our last year of the HND, a scary feeling. An even scarier feeling when you can’t even understand the technical language used in the brief. Despite the feeling of fear, I felt a glimpse of inspiration today. A tiny little spark which lit up inside and felt like the biggest bear hug I had ever received. A feeling of wanting to do some work… Wanting to take some photographs and wanting to enjoy myself whilst doing so. Although after about 3.7 seconds that feeling had burnt out… Completely.
As soon as I got home I flaked out on the bed. Having the desire to search for that wonderful feeling again I started looking around for inspiration, and that’s what I want to share with you today. To help you with your struggles of trying to find passion in the dark.
1. Listening to beautifully composed music. My favourite piece is The Meadow by Alexandre Desplat. Which is featured in the Twilight movie New Moon, this piece brings me to tears.
2. I love to paint delicate flowers or anything in fact. Just holding a paintbrush in hand sends creativity through my blood and flowing around my body. Even though my skills are extremely low, I still find whatever I create to bring me great pleasure.
3. Looking at old pieces of photographic work I’ve created. Even bits that I think are absolute crap, because seeing them makes me laugh, and helps me see how far I’ve come through my means of practising. Especially my first printed images from my first roll of film… 24 basic images of the same bunch of roses, (why oh why did I waste so many frames?!) still I find them so satisfying even though they’re over 6 years old.
4. Not giving a F*** – Which I’ve learnt how to achieve even more so, from this wonderful book called ‘ F*** it ‘ by John C.Parkin. A beautifully written self-help book which takes saying F*** it into your spiritual realms of life.
Let’s all pray for a huge dose of inspiration to get me through the week!